That's four...count 'em 4 decades!
Forty years on this earth is nothing to sneeze at. I think most people would agree that this is the "halfway point" for life expectancy these days. Maybe more, or maybe less. But it feels about right.
I used to think 40 was ancient. And then I turned 30 and 35 and then 39. Now that I'm on the brink of turning that BIG number, it feels like I blinked my eyes and here I am.
When I reach back into my memories to my earliest days and then take a saunter along the years, it does feel like I have done a lot of living.
Graduations, moves, marriage, babies, grief and loss, travel, mortgage, career paths, epic friendship...I've packed a lot in these last four decades.
When I string it out like that, then 40 looms as significant.
But it unlike the 20 year old version of myself, I no longer think that it's ancient. Over. Washed up. Finito.
Over. the. hill.
If anything, I feel like at 40, I'm just finally cresting that hill...the one of self-doubt, insecurity, body image issues, and worry. I feel like I have learned to move beyond those things and maybe for the first time ever I am sitting comfortable in my own skin.
I love this feeling.
And, so...I decided. There will be no black-themed parties for me. There will be no "over the hill" cards and quiet acceptance of mid-life crises.
Instead, I'm going to kick 40's butt!
How, you ask?
I have this wonderfully delicious plan to intentionally plan out events, trip, goals and dreams that I want to accomplish in this next year of my life. I want to arrive at 41 breathless and in awe of all that I heard, saw and did.
I want to celebrate this crazy, wonderful life I'm living -- to set down some tangible markers of my intent to embrace the next 40 with wild abandon.
And here's what I plan to do:
- Take a reunion trip with my girls that I laughed and lived with in Belgium
- Create a logo with "Fab 4D" on it that I can put on stuff and wear it loud and proud
- Similarly create an Instagram hashtag of the same catchphrase to capture all of the 4D goodness
- Run another half-marathon
- Make a trek up to Redding, CA and visit Bethel Church and do a sozo
- Go to Tanzania
- Sky dive
- Climb Half Dome
- Finally learn how to play my guitar
- Write a novel
- Go to an "epic concert" -- hopefully U2 or Coldplay or one of my faves
- Adventure more and in more places
- Attend a writer's conference...maybe the one at Mount Hermon in the Spring
The journey through is as important as the milestone. And I love that one of those "Belgium Babes" that I just saw this past weekend (yes, I've checked one off the list already!), gave me this necklace that I'm wearing right now as a wonderful reminder.
Joy in the journey, indeed.
- Make Pinterest-y type of mosaic craft that showcases my "Year of 4D" experience
And I found my jam for this year too! Mandisa's song, "Overcomer" is a fist-pumping jewel of a tune that gets my blood pumping every time.
Stay in the fight ‘til the final round
You're not going under
'Cause God is holding you right now
You might be down for a moment
Feeling like it's hopeless
That's when He reminds You
That you're an overcomer
You're an overcomer
Forty is nothing to fear.
Rather, 40 should fear me!